JEFF THE CROCODILE
Nairobi, Kenya
NAIROBI
AP
The first drop of the
zordfiles tees are out!! Couldn’t be more excited..this first drop is
the wonder woman collection for my mom and all the very wonderful women
and girls out here..You are superheroes..no diggity no
doubt..hahaha..got the dopest people to model you might know some of
these musicians, writers, stylists, poets and lawyers..@ach13ng @waksy_ @aweenja. @theresiatracy @nudi_koli
all killing it in their respective fields and overall in life.. .
Photography: ZORDFILES
Styling: @nudi_koli
Shoot assistant: @frankdi254
YOU KILLED POETRY
LIVE FROM Nairobi, Kenya
Can i just say how this year has been one the toughest years of my
life.Can i also just say also that this same year I’ve been unraveled by
God to the max and he continues to do so. It’s strange to share this
because it’s just that, strange. A large part of my design as a person
has always been infused in keeping up a brave face, and it’s not because I’m super macho or I’m the typical cave man dude, who does not show
emotion, on the contrary, i cried once watching a Loise and Clark
episode, and i think i still choke up a bit when they shoot my home
girl queen Latifah in set it off, and anyone who knows me, knows
this..my heart is always out here to be bared if you dig enough, but
yeah, keeping up a brave face was a default setting in me because, you
know, i don’t want to bother anyone with my problems, and also, i needed
to be the strongest person for the people around me… This is all good
but it’s a mask that will wear off eventually, And when it does, it’s
sorta heavy. And you are either left with two options, you can sink way
way deeper while trying to hold on to that brave face which might
actually kill you cos of all the bottled up things that are pushing up
and looking for a release or you can actually strip down become naked
and acknowledge your nakedness. I definitely became undone this year, i
piled up too many thing and as a consequence and it blew up all inside, i
know i haven’t been a good friend, son, or overall human being this
year as a consequence… Almost avoiding relationships that i was sure
would force me strip me down. I thank God, that i got truly stripped
down. This manifested itself in me missing in action when my friends and
family looked for me. it’s not that i wasn’t there for them it’s more
like i was running away from their concern and Love. i write this, with a
new set off eyes, and i don’t also want this to be like a lame parable
where i skim off my my pain with huge similes. the truth is I’ve been
down in dumps and it hurt and it was painful yo!!! i had days where i
was a grouch to myself and i thought the worst of me, all in the name of
putting a brave face. I’m at a point now where i can share and be real
with myself, loved ones and you. You know, people who need to hear that
it’s not always rosy. That life sucked for me and i cried and that it’s
super fine to do so. And no, it’s not so that you can relate to my
misery, and be like ‘oh snap, we in the same boat dude, let’s stuff our
faces with fries and swim in apathy’ it’s more like dude, I’m here for
you.. i went through this( insert me sharing at deeper level) and and I’m
getting better and you’ll get better to. Coz you were meant to kick ass
and people loves you.
